Gay the Pray Away by Natalie Naudus
⭐⭐⭐⭐ Gay the Pray Away — Heartbreaking, Hopeful, and So Needed (4/5 ⭐)
Author: Natalie Naudus
Genre: YA Contemporary / LGBTQ+ / Coming-of-Age / Religious Trauma
⚠️ TRIGGER WARNINGS
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Religious trauma & cult dynamics
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Homophobia & conversion ideology
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Emotional abuse
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Child abuse (non-graphic)
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Shunning / family estrangement
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Control of bodily autonomy
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Threatened physical violence
🚨 SPOILER WARNING 🚨
This review includes a FULL, COMPLETE plot summary, including the ending. Proceed accordingly 💥
📖 What Is Gay the Pray Away About?
At its core, Gay the Pray Away is about unlearning shame. It follows Valerie Danners, a 17-year-old girl raised in an ultra-religious community governed by the Institute of God’s Basic Principles (yes, it’s as suffocating as it sounds). Valerie has been taught that her feelings are sinful, her body is dangerous, and obedience is love.
Then she meets Riley—and everything cracks open.
This book is clearly written for queer kids who grew up being told God would hate them… and also for readers who want to understand just how damaging that messaging can be.
🏠 Life Inside the Institute: Control Disguised as Love
Valerie’s world is rigid, quiet, and constantly surveilled. Girls are raised to be “arrows” for future husbands. Emotions are suspect. Independent thought is basically demonic.
Early on, Valerie sneaks to the library under the guise of researching conservative politics (A+ manipulation skills, honestly) and steals a “forbidden” book—One Last Stop. Reading it in her closet at night, she discovers something radical: joy. Acceptance. A life where love isn’t treated like a moral failing.
Meanwhile, we see the ugliness beneath the community’s polished smiles:
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A child punished until he vomits.
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A girl shunned for leaving.
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Parents who call abuse “discipline” and control “devotion.”
This is where the book really shines—it never sensationalizes. It just shows.
💕 Enter Riley: Jeans, Short Hair, and Zero Tolerance for BS
Riley arrives wearing jeans (scandalous!) and short hair (gasp!), immediately clocking the weirdness of Valerie’s world. She’s funny, blunt, and refreshingly unafraid to say what everyone else is terrified to think.
Their connection grows slowly but intensely—hand-holding at a massive religious conference, whispered conversations, stolen moments of freedom. Valerie realizes something huge while surrounded by thousands of uniformed families listening to sermons about submission:
💡 Oh. I’m in a cult.
And Riley? She becomes Valerie’s first experience of being accepted without conditions.
💔 Love, Discovery, and the Cost of Being Honest
Valerie and Riley’s relationship deepens—from first kisses under a willow tree to redefining Valerie’s purity ring as something that belongs to her, not the church. Their joy is quiet, tender, and fragile because they know discovery would mean devastation.
And then… it happens.
Valerie’s parents catch them.
What follows is brutal:
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Her room is ransacked.
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Her door is removed.
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Her books are burned.
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She’s subjected to “counseling” and increased surveillance.
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A courtship proposal is arranged—without her consent.
That’s when Valerie does the bravest thing in the book.
She says no.
🏃♀️ The Escape & the Ending (YES, You Get Hope)
With Riley’s help—and the quiet, complicated courage of her mother—Valerie leaves. On February 1st, she escapes before her father can stop her.
She moves in with Riley at Mira’s grandparents’ house, where she is welcomed with:
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Warm meals
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Safety
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Unconditional love
No sermons. No threats. Just care.
Valerie begins healing. She drinks matcha lattes. Learns pop culture. Breathes.
And in one of the most emotionally satisfying moments of the book, her mother visits—not to preach, but to bring Valerie her birth certificate and diploma. She tells her, simply:
“I love you.”
No conditions. No God-shaped loopholes.
The story ends with Valerie finally belonging—to herself. 🥹
💭 My Thoughts
I’ll be honest: I don’t have personal experience with this kind of upbringing. But I could feel the intention behind this book. It’s written like a hand reaching out, saying:
You’re not broken. You’re not alone.
Is it heavy? Yes.
Is it necessary? Absolutely.
I kept reading because I needed that good ending—and Natalie Naudus delivers it with warmth, humor, and compassion. ⭐⭐⭐⭐
📚 If You Liked This, Try These
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The Miseducation of Cameron Post by Emily M. Danforth
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Her Name in the Sky by Kelly Quindlen
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You Should See Me in a Crown by Leah Johnson
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I Kissed Shara Wheeler by Casey McQuiston
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Last Night at the Telegraph Club by Malinda Lo
💬 Final verdict:
Gay the Pray Away is tender, devastating, and hopeful—a book that matters. And honestly? I’m really glad it exists. 💖
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